Leah

I ended my friendship with my ex-best friend because she seems to control everything and message me every single day and when I don't respond to her she'd she sent me a lot of these messages if she didn't hear from me. She's in a relationship for more than. Two years and I seem to be a third wheel and never do the fun stuff without her boyfriend and I always hang out with my other best friend because it's just us two and we have a lot of things in common which made the girl rather jealous or controlling. I didn't see it because I'm too nice or I just believed it because we are friends for a long time. She did try to see me once a week without the boyfriend but it turns out me and her don't have much in common like we use to and I keep denying it because being different people can be friends all over again. Or so I thought when I went to Spain and told her I get in touch on my last day but she kept contacting me and was tired and I want to enjoy my holiday and then crossed it to message my grandma to get a hold of me and I was pissed off. She crossed the line. Oh sure I should have gotten back to her because she was worried. But my other best friend doesn't until I get back to her. I just wanted to enjoy my holiday but she almost ruined that and grew spiteful and wish I don't bother with her anymore. I know I shouldn't break up over by phone but I didn't want to talk to her face to face because I was tired of the gig and she'd give me some sob story and try to play innocent.

Okay, this has been bugging me recently, I've been getting these dark thoughts, i won't go that deep about it because i don't want to think about that subject. I told my mum about it and she's a nurse for learning disability so she knows what she's talking about and understand what's going on.

I felt a little better coming clean but its still there after I told her on the weekend. She did say that I could be depressed but I don't know what to do. I could see a therapist but I could be overacting and I hope it will go away because I might have a bad week.

Any advice please?

It's been a few months now and I'd pretend I'm fine and **** when I'm friends with him-I feel parinoid when he's secretly glancing and I'd avoid it. My best friend doesn't know I was out with that guy because we've kept it a secret. However, my best friend would try to match make me with him all the time when he's there and I said shut up not in a million years--I'm this close to tell them that we used hange out but I don't feel the same way so stop ...it's crazy!