Abdulmajeed

My family brings me sickNess,  when I talk, they say you are sick, go take a medicine, yesterday my mother left for me a share of food, but I did not eat it, they told you are sick go take medicine. I sleep for a long time, maybe 6 hours at least, they keep telling me the same thing. Actually, they really make me sick. I must leave them. And stop talk to them. What do you think ?! I want them die. Litterally

My family call me I am sick, just because I do not like to speak with them, and I do not like to set with them because they do not appreciate my viewpoints, what must I do ?! 

I have lost my favourite  job 2 years ago, now I really want to leave this world, every time I sleep, I wish I do not wake up, but i wake up. waiting the death every moment I live, I am 27 and I wanna leave this life. I do not want to live any more.

I am 27 years, last month I met with a woman, I ask her for sex, she keeps telling me she wants money first. I go out with her for a dinner many times, and for each time I gave her money, but when I get her home, she goes up her apartment quickly and closes the door before I reach it, and leaveso me outside. I call her she says she loves me but she needs cash again to let me have sex with her, then I go home, and next day I ask her for a sex, and she asks me for a gift and money, I buy her a gift and give her cash, then get her home and tell me to wait outside, I wait for long but no use. I gave her 3200$.

I love her, but she does not while she claims that.

I think I am too stupid young guy.