why do i feel so bad? (please be nice)

Question

ok ive been diagnosed with rapid cycle bi polar with ocd and ptsd. my fiancee has just left me. I'm on sertraline, lithium and olazapine. i was so upset i went out with what i thought was a close trusted friend, we went out for a drink, i had to much(my fault i know). when we got home he took advantage, i didn't want this! he told me in the morning he was not careful, i went and got the emergency contraceptive pill, i feel so dirty and used. cant understand why he would do this when he knows how fragile i am. now I'm really worried i feel so ill don't know if my meds are reacting and cant get my head around this....... can you put my mind at rest.... could i still get preg even with the meds? why did he do this..... I'm such a mess!

Update:

but it was my fault for trusting him, i thought a drink was a drink. i was sleeping in his spare room, i dont really remember with the meds and the drink. would it be rape!? (i dont know)i havent heard from him since i left...... im so worried and messed up just dont know what to do.....im just so so so stupid!

Update 2:

im not doing the thumbs down. i have no one im so alone

Jo-Ann M · Accepted Answer

what's going on with all the thumbs down here?  You are not to blame for anything except being ill and trying to lean on a friend for support. And as for being responsible for drinking too much? who bloody hasn't.  With the amount of head wreck you've been experiencing, I think you're doing well to hold yourself together to this point. Why don't you phone NHS Direct and ask them all the questions you need to about your medication.  Google the number.   Also it's hard for me to say anything about your "friend".  I know what I want to say ("I'd get a violation though) but only you know him and what he's REALLY like.  Do you think his actions were out of character for him?  Did he take advantage of you? Were you aware of what was happening at the time?  What is his attitude like with you now?  Is he aware of how you feel about the whole thing and is he remorseful or does he not give a sh*t? 
First things first though.....have a hot shower, use some nice smelling moisturisers,put on your jammies, get someone close to you to come round to give you a big hug.  Talk it through with someone you trust and put things into perspective.  Most of all...... Give yourself a break. You've got enough on your plate without having to deal with the actions of your..... sorry to say it....... IDIOT of a drunken friend.  Please e mail me if you want to talk further.     Jox

laura · Answer

Your so called "friend" is the one that should be feeling ashamed...NOT you....yes, you could have been more careful, but the truth is that you trusted your friend to help you take your mind off your troubles....not create new ones...if I were you..I'd NEVER speak to this person again.
Sorry you're feeling so crummy...but isn't it better that this relationship ended now instead of in the future when you have even more emotionally invested? I know how hard it is....but if you can get through so many other medical challenges...this'll be a piece of cake . Keep telling yourself that you are a STRONG and intelligent and a beautiful human being. Isn't it true that your thoughts become your words and your words become your feelings/actions? Positive self talk is so very important. I know...I know...it feels silly...but trust me on this one. Only allow positive thoughts in your mind and push out all the negative. YOU CAN DO THIS!!

Lily B Talus · Answer

You've been raped by your so - called friend, report him as he took advantage of your vulnerability, the emergency contraceptive is likely to have worked but has side effects which may contribute to your feelings of unhappiness - you need to talk to someone, please look for counselling.If you live in the U.K. ring Rape Crisis they will really help you, or try respect the charity for people with mental health problems.It's not your fault, I will be thinking of you. Good luck.

? · Answer

Do not blame yourself for whatever happened, the pill should work just fine and the ill feeling is just the side effects of the morning pill. That friend of yours is the one who should be ashamed of himself for doing whatever he did, he is the cheap one who is not worth your attention. We live and we learn, just get over it and find another reason on why you deserve to smile. For heaven's sake you still are breathing and do not have to pay for the air, it's such a blessing.

Anonymous · Answer

You should report him to the police what he did was so wrong.  Whether or not you were drunk or not is not a factor, NO means NO.

He took advantage of you at your moment of weakness which was horrible to do.  If you took plan B you should be fine but I would have to suggest getting tested for STD's as well just to be safe.

Try to relax and talk to a professional about this.

sadie_oyes · Answer

Side effects of the morning after pill can cause headaches, nausea, vomiting, abdominal pain, dizziness, fatigue for a couple days and an irregular period.

GeeCee · Answer

You were vulnerable and he took full advantage, he is, in my eyes, a pig.Stay away from the drink and keep taking your meds. I hated life enough that I tried to end it several years ago, I love it now. I wish you well and stay away from the pig.

Anonymous · Answer

That's what happens when you try to be Satan. You're not called the Blue-eyed Devil for nothing.

♥♥♥NikkiNooNar♥♥♥ · Answer

No its highly unlikely you will get pregnant unless your really unlucky!!

Just see this as a lesson, it happened and there is nothing you can do - cut all contact with this man and start having fun with your girlie friends.

I hope you start feeling better xx

Anonymous · Answer

im sorry you are having such a tough time. emergency contraception can make you feel ill. dont feel dirty and used, it wasnt your fault. he dod it because he was drunk and horny, i dont think he did it deliberately to hurt you.

why do i feel so bad? (please be nice)

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