I can't stop crying?

Woah don't worry this stuff just happens when you're fourteen, you'll come out of the other end just fine. Your brain chemistry is a little out of whack, should be okay soon enough.

visit blackdogtribe.com to get online support. Also visit yourlifeyourvoice.org to talk to a free online councellor. Look up exercise and depression, it releases endorfins which improve mood and brain chemistry. Also look up art therapy, channelling what yr feeling into something creative helps yr brain process the negativity in yr head, even if yr not good at art; a could technique is doodling it brings yr thoughts into the present stopping u dwelling on the past and yr problems. If yr self esteem is low do and learn new things, small at first, this will give u a sense of achievement...Find some volunteer work, helping others or nature builds self esteem, it looks good on yr CV, it gives perspective, u ll meet nice new people and it gives good karma. U don't have to believe in God but finding some spirituality helps and good karma is a good start. When u find things that help come on here and share with the other troubled people, more good karma. Join clubs, groups, classes and activities in yr community were u ll meet likeminded people and have new things in yr life. U could even challenge yrself by joining activities u wouldnt normally be interested in. Don't be afraid to go to yr doctor and be totally honest, they ll understand and be able to help, medication or a change of medication can work wonders. A journey of self discovery is a good thing to do. Try different ways of living until u find one that makes sense. People have all kinds of reasons for living. And the journey of self dicovery is half the reward. Read The Magic by Rhona Byrne it has helped alot of people. And playing computer games has been shown to help with depression. Good luck,

Being a teenager is very very hard becouse you discover who you are what you like etc it can be very overwhelming, but let me tell you something my teenage years are long gone and we all and always are at risk of negative thoughts, it is ok to think negatively for a while its normal but you have to work hard and cut it out, you could end up with depression and that's the least you need on the list! The brain is the most powefull thing, the only thing you have to do (not easy) is think positively! Think for example, of the billions of inocent people in the world that suffer, not everybody has food even if its hard to believe its true, no food no clean water no education or very mediocre in most countries violence is a form of living and god loves you so much you ended up in a privileged place! Also I would suggest you wright a letter to your mom or someone like a teacher or adult who loves you they all have gone through something similar ;) be brave! And try your best to be happy that's what we all have to do and at the end wanting to be happy makes you happy! And plz be very carfull with Internet friends you NEVEVER know who's on the other side!

I'm gonna tell you something, I'm going through problems myself, I feel alone, I cry all the time and I need help. Life really sucks for some people but I can guarantee you that nearly everyone in the whole world has gone through serious sh!t in their life, they've thought about suicide, gone and actually committed suicide, whereas in MANY situations, it always leaves the people left behind devastated, if the person who committed suicide saw how much people actually cared about them they probably wouldn't have gone through with doing it. Sometimes you go through so much crap that you just get sick of it, you want things to look up really fast, but honestly things don't get better fast, it takes time. This is going to sound really stupid but imagine life as a survival video game, you're getting hunted, chased, completely alone and you're tired of fighting monsters, but when you're nearing the end you find yourself reaching the end and being happy again. So to put it like this, there's only so much crap you can go through before it ends, it could be months or years but there is light at the end of the tunnel, that's what keeps me positive, I just need help along the way. I'm 18 years old.

I originally stopped my reply short because I sensed I had started wrong-headedly and I was correct. It was wrong-headed.

So I now have a different opinion from the one I first started to write. It is that you maturely believe that your inexplicable flood of tears marks a change in your manifestation of Asperger’s Syndrome.

So let me attempt a 'psycho-analysis' of it. It might help illuminate it better for you. What’s happening to you, I think, is, you are unconsciously going through a psychological watershed of all the residual unresolved issues that are left from your infancy, childhood, and early teens, as preparation for your forthcoming journey into and through the rite of passage associated with the coming of age of fifteen.

Nobody makes a big issue about the big one five anymore, as it is no longer a beacon in the rites of passage of a UK teenager.

Personally, however, I suspect that the cultural aspect might have had an underlying psychological necessity that is no longer being catered for by a rite of passage, possibly the point in time when you subconsciously accept that procreation has finally become a practical possibility, because age 15 was the earliest you could leave full time education and, if needs be, get a full paid job with an adult wage, capable of supporting a one-child family, maybe even though or despite it being the lowliest adult wage available within an particular part of the UK as when I worked as a labourer at a Fyffes processing and distribution depot when I was 15.

So, based on that assumption, might I suggest that your tears are not only for your need to set the seal on all those unresolved issues of your now seemingly soon-to--be long-lost infancy, childhood and early teens, as you approach this unsaid rite of passage, but also for that now seemingly long-lost rite of passage itself.

But, additionally for you, there is the issue of a parting of the ways of very long-standing friendships and relationships that will soon possibly be long-lost friendships and relationships, and for you could be immensely painful, because aspies have psychological attachments to familiar relationships and routines.

This could mean your present seeming nervous breakdown is in fact an autistic meltdown, so, in that sense, you need to keep your finger on the pulse of your sanity while going through this – as there is, god forbid, a risk of you melting down in coma in some god forsaken place like I did in my childhood.

And you might not be as fortunate as me and come out of it virtually unscathed as I did each and every time, one way or another, by the grace of God and the attendant at the Pearly Gates, whom I still remember as a kindly version of The Grim Reaper.

My concern is, you may not have developed the team of secret invisible friends, gurus, guides, tutors, mentors, saints and heroes that I surrounded myself as a result off having Grampa, up there with me in my avatar, to teach me about his world of mystery, miracles, and magic; so you may not come out of such a coma at all, or not come out of it sane, or not come out of it with the memories and personal identity you have now.

If this is a manifestation of an autistic meltdown and not a run-of-the-mill nervous breakdown, or silly-billy unconscious attention--seeking device, then the next stage is likely to be an increase in severity that could be easily misconstrued by your stepfather, and / or by the school, health and social welfare authorities, as you 'going off the rails' and your step-father may apply for you to be taken into care, and you may end up a homeless, drug and alcohol addicted, 'down-and-out', selling your body to stay alive, as so many that have gone down that road have done.

I am concerned for you but I am not frightened for you because you have said something very mature in your penultimate paragraph.

Your problem, as I see it, is you are surrounded by good people who will hold and hug you and will listen and talk to you, because that’s what neurotypicals do when they are giving support.

But none of them are aspies and therefore none of them have ever had a meltdown, and might not therefore even recognise you are having one if you do.

So my advice is go see the best autie / aspie counsellor / therapist you can – tell him / her what you have said here – and what I have said – and ask for counselling about meltdowns.

That way, if you have such a severe autistic meltdown that everyone else thinks you've gone off the rails, you will have a significant adult who won't, and is aware you might be in meltdown and will thus assert your interests if you unable to assert them yourself due to your age or whatever.

DAT Esq 13:02 GMT 06/June/2013 Wales, U.K.

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