Why do you think I did this as a child?

Question

As a child I sometimes cut the gental area on my girl dolls with scissors. I would hide it from people so they couldnt see but I felt at the time that I was doing the right thing for the doll! I remember once scribbling over the area in a red pen to represent blood.

I don't have very vivd memories of being sexually abused but in appropriately fondled on one occasion when about 3/4 years old.

Is it likely these actions were just by a curious child exploring sexuality and body parts or do you think it was because of something more sinister?

I dont know the answer so I am not predicting that people's answers on here are going to be accurate or correct but I just wanted to know people's opinion.

Thanks

Anonymous · Accepted Answer

How old were you? It could just be as you said a curious child exploring sexual parts or it could be something deeper. Maybe you should go to a councilor or something and talk about it.

tom · Answer

I don"t think its forced to be abuse. You may have had an intuition of menstruation or might have picked it up from something an older girl said perhaps who suddenely shut up when she realised you were around after you had already picked up the gist and the idea that it was a thing that people hid away. Or maybe you saw your mum changing a tampon perhaps and she shut the door on you causing you to hide the doll away like your mum hid from you? 
Children are like psychic sponges picking up all kinds of stuff from around them

Anonymous · Answer

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Cloud · Answer

You did that because you were still sub consciously traumatized from since you were a child.

(Something more sinister), the only reason I think so is because you hid the cuts on the genital area on your dolls from people around you. You felt like if you were doing the right thing for the doll all the time because of the child abuse, feeling like maybe if I had cut this off or taken this away, that horrible experience would have never happened.

Lobbs · Answer

Wow I have no idea but it reminds me of the film Antichrist.  But she was an adult and a grieving mother so obviously it's not the same as your case (plus it's a Lars von Trier film so not exactly realistic!)

I guess only a qualified mental health professional who has in-depth knowledge of you can answer this

**Ghosty** · Answer

Hi - I did the same to some of my dolls, and I drew the most obscene (unrealistic) drawings.

I was NOT abused.

You had an active and excellent imagination, and knew how to add a touch of realism to your play; there is nothing wrong with that.

Good luck.
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And one of the answers, claiming to be a 'psychologist' is an absolute disgrace. Please disregard such nonsense.

Why do you think I did this as a child?

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