Give flowers to the person when they are alive.?

She pushed her hands deeper into her pockets, her step quicken, maybe if she walked faster she would walk off the edge of the earth, disappear, just disappear and never have to feel this pain again. The pavement became speckled with darker spots, more and more dark wet heavy spots of rain. She pulled her coat tight, holding it closed at her neck. Music spilled out from the shops she passed, but it just sounded like noise to her now, people smiling, shopping. She wanted to scream out loud that life can not go on, life will never be the same. She looked up to get her barrings, almost there, her footsteps became heavier now, the rain soaked her raven hair to her face, tears now mixed with the cold ice rain that fell. She could see the doorway in the distance, pushing past a man who stood at a bus stop, not noticing, not caring, she needed to get to the other side of that door. "Hey look where your going" the mans voice sounded like it was a voice from a dream, a nightmare. She placed her hand on the door, opened it quickly with the key she had held in her hand since leaving her apartment. She stepped inside, closing the door behind her. She could smell her in this place, it was as if part of her was woven into every fibre of this house. Walking slowly now she enter the living room, her chair, the cusion still with the imprint of her body form when she last set there. Tara sat on the floor and rested her head on the seat of the chair. For a moment she was back to being 10 years old and could feel her mother stroke her hair, she could hear her tell her everything would be okay. She closed her eyes and hoped she would wake and find out it was all just a bad dream. The sound of the letterbox woke Tara serval hours later. Jumping from where she lay on the floor beside her mothers chair Tara knocked over a vase. Picking it up she gazed at it, full of regret now Tara thought of all the times she had meant to buy her mother flowers. Tomorrow she would place flowers at her grave, such a pity she will not get to see them. To be continued. :)